What's Underwater

n: SWOON! Total swoontasm.
p: Sigh. It's everything you'd said it would be. And more.

So, I am updating for all those who were part of my fucking 'moment' yesterday. Everything shifted tonight. Everything feels so good and raw and safe that I am afraid to even breathe. He always said the right things, picked up the right cues. Tonight was different. JB, the guy, is funny, smart, insightful, gentle, relaxed; and I got all of that tonight with some sort of very directly and cleanly Dominant composition. He really read the transcript; he asked me to say somethings, but not everything. Just knew what I needed. The poor guy has literally stopped sleeping at night. I feel like a full time job. He keeps saying that it's okay to be that way. How is someone really saying that to me? I feel so lucky.

JB: Do you feel ok?
JB: I'm still here.
L: I do.
JB: Good.
L: I feel a lot of good things for you.
L: It makes me afraid.
JB smiles.
JB: Well, it shouldn't.
L: Things go away for me.
L: That's probably why I am shitty at endings.
JB: No matter what happens, I'll always be your Sir.
JB: Understand?
lolalane smiles.
L: Yes, Sir.
L: I understand.
JB: Good girl, (my name here).